Wednesday, November 10, 2010

From Daisy's heart

Dear Jay,
          I do not know where to began. This is my sixth time trying to write a letter that will make you understand me and my feelings. So, I will be truthful and tell you from the beginning that I am about to make a life changing decision today that I may later regret. I do not know if it is the right one. I just know that I am tried to begin alone and waiting for you every single day of my life. When you left me a hole appeared in my heart. I loved you very much and that is why a resented you as well. Because loving you meant pain and missing you meant extreme solitude. Everyday a piece of me died from within and it seemed that there was no end to this pain. Therefore, I have made the choice that will set me free from this dreadful prison. Jay, I am getting married but my heart still belongs to you. I am going to start my own life and be happy. Jay, I want to be able to feel happiness again. I want to feel alive again instead of being half death and living off the memories from the past.
          I know you are going to hate me for what I am about to do. But, please try to see my poor heart and then judge me. The man that I am marrying is someone that my family approves of. He is well educated, wealthy and a good person. I know he will treasure me just as you once did. I believe that he is the one who can set me free from this misery. Jay we should just think of our time together in Kentucky as a beautiful dream. However, a dream is only a dream. It has to end sometime and so I am going to wake up to reality as should you.  Forgive me for this selfish act and forget me.

                                                                                                                Goodbye,
                                                                                                                             Daisy

1 comment:

  1. Dearest Daisy,
    I completely understand your feelings at the moment, but yes, I am extremely upset and distrought. Reading your letter hurt me ridiculously. I almost had to stop reading halfway through... It is taking all of my energy to write these few words to you right now, for I am destroyed inside. I need some time. Do not think of this as a good bye forever, and know that I will do everything in my power to once again find you and make you mine one day.
    Yours,
    Jay

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