Dear Jay,
I do not know where to began. This is my sixth time trying to write a letter that will make you understand me and my feelings. So, I will be truthful and tell you from the beginning that I am about to make a life changing decision today that I may later regret. I do not know if it is the right one. I just know that I am tried to begin alone and waiting for you every single day of my life. When you left me a hole appeared in my heart. I loved you very much and that is why a resented you as well. Because loving you meant pain and missing you meant extreme solitude. Everyday a piece of me died from within and it seemed that there was no end to this pain. Therefore, I have made the choice that will set me free from this dreadful prison. Jay, I am getting married but my heart still belongs to you. I am going to start my own life and be happy. Jay, I want to be able to feel happiness again. I want to feel alive again instead of being half death and living off the memories from the past.
I know you are going to hate me for what I am about to do. But, please try to see my poor heart and then judge me. The man that I am marrying is someone that my family approves of. He is well educated, wealthy and a good person. I know he will treasure me just as you once did. I believe that he is the one who can set me free from this misery. Jay we should just think of our time together in Kentucky as a beautiful dream. However, a dream is only a dream. It has to end sometime and so I am going to wake up to reality as should you. Forgive me for this selfish act and forget me.
Goodbye,
Daisy
Dearest Daisy,
ReplyDeleteI completely understand your feelings at the moment, but yes, I am extremely upset and distrought. Reading your letter hurt me ridiculously. I almost had to stop reading halfway through... It is taking all of my energy to write these few words to you right now, for I am destroyed inside. I need some time. Do not think of this as a good bye forever, and know that I will do everything in my power to once again find you and make you mine one day.
Yours,
Jay